Gerard O'Riley

When I was a kid maybe about 11 or 12 it was a strange guy that was living in the town I lived in and you'd see him if you went downtown. People used to call him Ahdiah. Now we figured that probably wasn't as real name, but if you ask him his real name that's what he said. He was a funny little guy, and if he wasn't hanging out on the street looking like a homeless dude, he was down at the bar drinking. Now you didn't have much money, so obviously people used to buy them drinks and then make fun of them. They used to get a kick out of him saying his name over and over. And when he said his name we would repeat it back to him. Now the bar stories I only heard about, because I wasn't old enough to go into the bar but when he was on the street we did the same thing to him as the people did in the bar. He used to be an important guy, and I guess he had money at one time, but things changed. I feel bad today about making fun of him, but back then that's what kids used to do.

This is another lyric about keeping secrets. If you're a guy, you've probably been to a strip club. I also know that some women like to go to strip clubs. I spent a lot of time in the strip clubs when I was using cocaine, and I'll never forget asking a stripper if I could trade her cocaine for some head in the back room. She just laughed at me and said I get all the cocaine I want, I just steal it, or men just give it to me without wanting anything back. Sometimes, they think they're going to get something back but the only thing they get is taken advantage of. This happens in the back room, also known as the VIP room, but people pay lots of money to sometimes get something but most of the time just get taken.

This is a song about drugging, and running out. You'll do anything to get your next hit, or fix. It's sort of like a rhetorical question, what do I have to do to get what I need. It becomes a real question, when you approach the person that has what you need and basically begs them for it. Most of the time this is when I run out of money and I promise that I'll pay them later or something like that. It's a song of depth, and desperation

This lyric is about breaking up with someone that you're so in love with. It's so devastating, and so unexpected. You can't think straight, and you have to go to a place where you can try to get your head clear. There's also some anger involved here because the person is really resentful about how they broke up with them, by sending a text sometimes the only thing that lights up the sky is a firefly

This song is about secrets, and skeletons in closets. I think there's all things that we keep to ourselves, and the only people that know other people that are providing that secret. We all have fantasies, and some of those things we live out. This song is about sexual fantasies, and a lifestyle that many people live, but so few know about. What I mean is that so few of the people that surround them know about