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In college my friend was dating this girl the somehow fit into our group as though she’d always been there. She’d cut his hair, patch clothing and be the first person to laugh if one of us fell on the ice. When she moved across the country and ended the relationship we all lost something. It was the first step in the exodus of friends that happens after college. I watched my friend quietly process his hurt. She buried hers in a positive exterior. I was too ignorant to see that at the time so I created my own internal narrative of her not caring as much. This song was processing. The metaphor was less veiled than I’d hoped and when I played it once I could see it wasn’t lost on her. We kept in touch but we’ve never spoken about the song. I’ve learned a great deal since then.

There’s an arrogance that I think we all carry in instinctively in feeling we have the fullest understanding of what is true and good. I have always been a curious on the rather tragic mentality behind some of the world's most violent leaders who would swear that all they ever wanted was peace and the happiness of their people. My own journey in learning from my self-righteousness led to this somewhat hyperbolic tune with a “Cask of Amontillado” nod.

I wrote this in my apartment in Minneapolis, one evening when I realized life didn't have me where I'd expected it would. I still thought "where" and "what" defined who I was, so I was left a little lost and wishing myself toward an idealized future where all uncertainty was behind me. The "place" of this could be subbed for wherever you were when you likely had the same feeling.

Breaking up can be a tough decision. Even worse if you end up regretting your choice.

This song describes the most incredible Christmas gift that one brother can give to another, who will die if he does not get a kidney. Christmas is a time for giving not receiving and there is no hesitation to do this.